Amber's Muse

Amber’s Muse by Lacey Wolfe

Amber’s Muse Copyright © 2011, Lacey Wolfe ISBN: 9781937325084 Publisher: Beachwalk Press, Inc. Electronic Publication: October, 2011 Editor: Pamela Tyner Cover: LFD Designs eBooks are not transferable. No part of this book may be used or reproduced without written permission, except in the case of brief quotations in articles and reviews. This book is a work of fiction and any resemblance to persons, living or dead, or places, events or locales is purely coincidental. The characters are productions of the author’s imagination and used fictitiously.

Back Cover Copy Sometimes it’s the person you least expect who can satisfy all your desires. By day Amber’s a librarian, and by night she hides away writing erotic romance novels. She has just one problem—not enough sexual experience to pull from. A recent steamy dream leaves Amber wondering if her neighbor Jax might be just the guy who can help her. He seems almost perfect to use as a sexual guinea pig, especially since she doesn’t have to worry about falling in love with him. Jax has lived next door to Amber for a year and has tried everything he can think of to get her to notice him, but it hasn’t worked. Until recently. When Amber approaches him asking for his help, he’s ready to jump on board. When he learns exactly what kind of help she needs, he’s definitely willing. Becoming involved with someone like Jax simply isn’t an option for Amber. He barely works, can’t manage his money, and has no ambition in life. So why does he suddenly seem so right for her? Content Warning: explicit sex

Dedication To my own hero, who every day lets me live my dream.

Acknowledgements There are so many people who have helped me get here today. I first want to thank my children for letting me take a time out from mom duties to write. A big thank you to my editor, Pamela Tyner, for liking what she read and getting this book to where it is now. She is the best editor and so kind for putting up with my million “why” questions. A hug to Crystal Sleeper who listened to me through all my ups and downs and was there to support me through it all. When I was ready to give up, she wouldn’t let me. If I could get my hands on author Keri Ford I would take her to lunch and load her up with drinks. She took me under her wing and taught me so much. I, of course, have to thank my parents for always keeping their faith in me. And lastly, but first in my life, is my amazing husband who listens to me about everything, even if he only remembers half. He has been my rock. He has given me the opportunity to be home to raise our kids and supports me in my quest for writing. I love you.

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Chapter 1 His hands tangled in her hair, pulling ever so gently. His mouth was wet and all over her. Her nipples puckered as his tongue swirled around them. He blew on them softly, sending a cooling sensation throughout her body. Her legs fell open as she grew wetter, and all she wanted was to feel him deep inside her. His mouth stayed on her breast however, drawing her nipple in as deep as he could. She shuddered at how just this was about to bring her to the brink of an orgasm. She gazed down at him as one of his hands left her hair and gripped the other breast, pinching the nipple. He searched her face, looking for her approval at what he was doing. She wanted to speak, but she was having a hard time catching her breath. His hand began to move down her body, and she grew even more excited at the thought that he was going to insert his fingers into her pussy. She was wet and ready and needed something filling her. She was surprised to suddenly feel his cock surge into her. She arched up, and his hand tightened in her hair as he penetrated her aching core even deeper. “Jax!” She cried out as he pumped into her with urgency. A ripple of pleasure began to flow through her body. She was coming. A scream escaped her as every nerve in her stood on end. Gasping for air, Amber gripped her cool sheets. “Where the hell did that come from?” she asked herself. Of all the people in the world, Jax had entered her dreams. That was certainly unexpected. When she thought of Jax, she thought of a man who had too much time on his hands and not enough motivation in life. Someone who was always trying to be friendly to her even though she gave him the cold shoulder. Realizing she’d just had a dirty dream about him disturbed her, yet she hadn’t felt so completely satisfied in a very long time and it had just been a dream. This was a sure sign she needed to get some real sex and get it soon. Throwing the sheets back, Amber straightened her shirt which had gotten all tangled up. She then glanced at the bed, the comforter half on the floor, sheets pulled from the creases, and pillows wedged between the headboard and mattress. It looked as though she had actually had a

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romp with someone. Rolling her eyes, she knew she needed to get ready for work and put this behind her. She hoped the next time she saw Jax she was able to look him in the eyes. **** Glancing at the clock, Amber sighed as there was only one more minute until closing time. She looked around the deserted library and decided to go ahead and lock up. Opening the desk drawer, she dug out the keys to the front door. Standing up, she straightened her pinstriped skirt and then slipped on her heels which were sitting under her desk. She hated heels and how they caused her feet to ache since she stood most of the day. The only good that came from wearing these shoes was that she felt damn sexy. The clicking of her heels echoed through the room as she headed for the front door. Just as she reached for the handle, Jax came running up, waving his hands to get her to open. Looking back at the clock and seeing that it was now a minute past closing, she let out a loud sigh as she opened the door to let him in. He was the last person she wanted to see today. “Good evening, Amber.” He was breathless as he stepped inside. “Please tell me you haven’t turned off the computers yet. I really need to check my email.” “You have five minutes, Jax. This is getting old.” She locked the door and headed back to the desk to finish her closing tasks. She wanted to get herself as far away from him as she could. “You really need to get internet at home. Hell, feel free to set your laptop near your wall that leads to my apartment and steal mine. I don’t care. I hate staying here late.” “Just five minutes, I promise,” Jax called as he took his place at the first computer he came across. As Amber finished up her evening tasks, her mind began to wander and think about how much she enjoyed her evenings at home. Her dream had always been to be a writer, so in her spare time she was composing a novel. The only problem was that she felt the need to write erotic romance. She had the plot down, but was having a terrible time with the sex scenes. The lack of intimacy in her life could be the culprit. Amber had always been shy, and the men she had previously been with certainly hadn’t rocked her world. In fact, she couldn’t ever recall having a toe-curling orgasm. Not even from her own ministrations. This was in no way helping her get over the writer’s block that seemed to consume her lately. She often thought about finding someone who could let her explore all things carnal with them to help her with this. Only problem was, she wasn’t near outgoing enough to approach someone to get the help she seemed

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to need. “Okay, I am shutting down now,” Jax called. Amber began walking around the library, putting away the books that had been left on the tables. A quick glimpse toward Jax showed he was turning off all the computers for her. She was thankful that at least when he pulled his stunt showing up after closing, he helped her get everything taken care of. Since it was Wednesday and for whatever reason, that was the day the least amount of teenagers came after school, clean up was quick, a fact she was grateful for. Placing a hand on her growling belly, she realized she was hungry. “Thanks for the help, Jax.” “No problem.” He switched off the lights in the back of the library. Amber smiled at him and felt a little flutter in her stomach. Feeling annoyed with herself she headed over to the desk and grabbed her purse. She glanced in the mirror and saw her curls were looking unmanageable. It was raining today, and that always caused her already frizzy hair to become even crazier. “All right, you ready?” she asked. “Yup. Could I get a ride home since we’re both going to the same place?” Rolling her eyes, she replied, “Sure. Thankfully it isn’t too much out of my way.” He laughed. “Lucky me.” The drive home was short, and she was anxious tonight to get home. The next two days were her days off, and she planned to spend them writing and relaxing as much as possible. “Do you want to grab a bite to eat?” Jax asked. A smirk crossed her face. She knew what he actually meant, the dollar menu was her only option. Jax was her dorky neighbor who did work, however he wasn’t good with managing his money. He barely got by, but it seemed like he enjoyed his life and he never seemed stressed. That was the opposite of her. She managed her money well and had a sizeable savings account to show for it. She didn’t struggle with her bills, but she still always felt stressed. “Not tonight, Jax. Trying to watch the weight, and I don’t think fast food is going to help that.” “It’ll be my treat.” “Do you need me to stop so you can get something?”

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“Would you mind?” Amber shook her head and turned into the direction where all the restaurants were. After getting Jax dinner, that he came up a dollar short for, she headed toward their apartment complex. As they ascended the stairs, Amber could hear her dog yapping away. There had been complaints lately about Moxy, her Boston terrier, barking all day. Amber was worried that soon she would be hearing from the landlord. “Sounds like Moxy is happy you’re home.” “Yeah, it’s nice coming home to someone.” She laughed. As soon as she unlocked the door and opened it, she scooped Moxy up into her arms and was given kisses all over her cheek from the pooch. “You know, Amber, you do so much for me. If there is ever anything I can do, please let me know.” Jax stood a little closer to her than usual. His dark hair was wet from the light mist of rain and it fell slightly in front of his dark blue eyes. He looked extremely seductive like this and she felt a slight tickle from him being so close. Her thoughts drifted back to her dream, his mouth on her nipples, sucking them in as deep as he could. His eyes peering at her the whole time he pleasured her. She took a deep breath. The rain made his cologne stronger, and she breathed in the captivating scent. She stared into his eyes a moment, then quickly looked away. Grabbing the leash on the inside of the door, she hooked it onto Moxy’s collar. She was thankful she had her dog for an escape route. “Thanks, Jax. I will let you know.” “All right. Well, as usual, thanks for letting me in tonight to use the computer. Really, one of these days I will get the internet.” He gave a slight nod and headed toward his door. “Night,” she called and couldn’t help but take notice of his back half in his dark jeans. An unexpected urge came over her to reach out and smack his tight ass. She hadn’t ever really felt attracted to him, but his smell was intoxicating and she had a sudden desire that she had to have more of him. Maybe Jax could help her out. He could possibly be her guinea pig with writing these sex scenes. Jax was beginning to look like the perfect guy to “play” with. “Come on, Moxy.” Amber turned and headed down the stairs with the dog. There was a stirring in her that she hadn’t felt for a while. Tonight was going to be a great writing night.

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Chapter 2 Entering his apartment, Jax threw the bag of food on the coffee table and rubbed his hands through his hair. Amber was so hot, and he needed a moment to cool down. He had wanted to push her up against the wall and have his way with her; the way she stared into his eyes like that, as if she wanted him too. His pants tightened as he imagined those seductive eyes of hers staring up at him as she took him inside her mouth. He had been interested in Amber from the moment he met her even though she had never really seemed to notice him. Until today. Never had she really looked at him, especially with the hunger he thought he might have seen. He had done so much to insert himself into her life. Yet, they stayed on an almost acquaintance type of friendship. During the time they had lived next door to each other she’d never been inside his apartment. Looking around, he thought that might be good. How would he explain the wireless router sitting in the corner? He chuckled, thinking about her irritated expression several nights a week when he showed up at the library right at closing. He had come to enjoy those times with her though. He wanted to know more about her. But she wasn’t willing to let him in, or anyone for that matter. In the year they had been neighbors, he could only remember one time he ever saw a man come and pick her up. For all he knew, it could have been her brother. Plopping on the couch, he opened up the food bag. He was starving. It was going to be a long night as he imagined her on the other side of the wall, doing whatever it was that she did over there. He opened his laptop, knowing he had work to do if he wanted a paycheck this week. All he really wanted to do though was lay there and fantasize about the possibility of Amber walking around next door, half naked. Maybe she was wearing something silky, short, and revealing. He groaned aloud, then realized that he had better get to work on this story or his arms were going to get tired tonight trying to keep up with his active mind. **** Amber woke after a restless night of sleep to the smell of fresh brewed coffee. Every morning she was thankful she took the extra time to set up the coffee maker before turning in for the night. She grabbed a pair of pajama pants off the floor and slid them on. Moxy hopped off

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the bed and immediately began racing around in excitement. “Yes, I see you, but I need my coffee first.” Slowly she found her way to the kitchen and poured a cup of the steaming hot beverage. As she enjoyed her first few sips of bliss she gazed out the window. The sun was out today and she was thankful. She liked her days off to be full of sunshine. It helped motivate her. Setting her coffee down, she called Moxy. After putting on the leash she then slipped on her favorite slippers and headed out with the dog. She glanced around and enjoyed the cool breeze blowing against her skin as Moxy did her business. When she was finished, Amber handed the pooch a treat and headed toward the stairs. She let Moxy off the leash and watched as the dog sprinted up toward their apartment. Slowly, she followed behind. As she was about to step inside she heard her name being called. Shit, she thought as she glanced down at her big rabbit ear slippers on her feet that were so old her big toe was sticking out. No one was ever out here when she took the dog out at this hour. Turning, she came face-to-face with Jax. She noticed he was looking down. Her eyes immediately went to her slippers, then she realized she was braless, wearing an old white t-shirt, and that her nipples had decided to be fully erect as if waving hello to him. She quickly crossed her arms and felt her face become flush. “Sorry, I didn’t mean to stare,” Jax said. Unsure of what to say, she decided to just stay silent. “So I was thinking about your predicament with Moxy,” he said. “What predicament?” “You mentioned in one of our talks about needing daycare or something for her. I was thinking that since I’m in and out of here during the day that I could always come in and walk her.” “Oh. Well, walking her isn’t the issue. It’s the barking all day that has the neighbors complaining.” “Well, I could play with her during the day.” It was too early for Amber to be making decisions. She was a night person, so how was she supposed to make a decision after only a few sips of coffee? “Let me think about it today.” “Okay, I could stop by the library later and see what you decided.”

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“I’m off today, so if you need the internet, you will have to come by my place. I doubt old Mabel is going to let you in at closing.” “Okay.” Amber looked him up and down. He was wearing light khakis and a button-down blue shirt. He looked confidant and sexy. Her eyes met his again, and she wasn’t sure why she had never noticed him before. He was hot, the way his hair fell in front of his eyes in that style that was suppose to look messy. Not to mention his lips—she could imagine herself nibbling on them. “Why don’t you come by later?” she suggested. Jax looked confused a minute and then smiled. “To discuss Moxy?” “Yeah, that and maybe we could talk about something else.” Taking a deep breath, she added, “I have a proposition for you.” She dropped her arms from her chest, well aware her nipples were still peeking out to say hello. And his gaze moved down to say hi right back. He glanced up at her face. “Yeah? Okay, I’ll be by l-later,” he stuttered. It was cute she thought. “I need coffee, so I’m going in. See you later.” She headed inside without looking back. Closing the door behind her, she leaned against it and sighed. Now that she’d told him she needed to talk to him there would be no getting out of it. She hoped she had the courage to actually get the words out. In the kitchen she grabbed her coffee and then went into the living room. Her laptop lay on the table, reminding her of last night’s writing. She had made some headway on her manuscript, thanks to using Jax as her inspiration. If only she’d noticed the sex appeal he had all this time, she might have had a whole series written. She was nervous about asking if he was interested in letting her use him as a sex guinea pig. Then again, what guy wouldn’t want such a benefit? She could try out her ideas on him, see how they flowed together, and hopefully get her book finished. She could repay him maybe by calling and getting internet turned on in his apartment. She wished she had narrowed down a time when he was coming. Being organized was something she prided herself on and now she was going to spend her day waiting on him. At least being his neighbor she could hear when he came and left, so it might give her a better idea.

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She could still kick herself for not setting a time. Frustrated in all possible ways, she grabbed the remote and decided to get lost in a talk show. **** For the hundredth time that day, Jax wiped his sweaty palms on his pant legs. Amber had a proposition for him, but she hadn’t given him any details. When he started drifting off about a proposition involving lots of naked skin, he shook himself and leaned back over his work. Amber wouldn’t ask him that. Only in his mind would that ever play out. He rushed to finish the damn article he was working on for a local magazine. He was trying to write more. He was a freelance writer and enjoyed the flexibility of his work. A nine-tofive job was one thing he never wanted. He liked the freedom of coming and going as he chose. However, lately the bills were adding up fast and he was worried that if he didn’t start to get more money coming in soon, he was going to sink. Finishing the article, he closed the laptop, knowing he needed to freshen up before going to see Amber. In his bedroom he came across two piles of clothes. He wasn’t sure which pile was clean. Later tonight he was going to need to run to the laundromat. A pair of light colored jeans was draped over the back of a chair. Picking them up and sniffing, he thought they smelled clean. He found a black t-shirt and slipped it on. In the bathroom he combed his hands through his hair. It was time for a haircut. He wasn’t sure when he’d last had one. He needed to get more organized. Glancing around the one bedroom apartment, he realized it needed to be cleaned too. Being an adult wasn’t all it was cracked up to be. After ten minutes of searching, he finally found his deodorant on the kitchen counter of all places. He made a mental note that tonight while he was sexually frustrated, he was going to use the frustration to clean this place up. He headed next door. After knocking, he stood outside in the breezeway, an intoxicating aroma of food filling the air. His stomach growled in hopes that maybe she had decided to cook dinner. When the door opened, he worried he might explode in his pants at how mouth-watering sexy she looked. Her chin length hair was curly, and behind her bangs sat a cute little pair of black-framed glasses. Then his gaze moved down to her body. She was wearing a low cut black dress, which was very form-fitting. His gaze kept going down to where he noticed she had on

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black stiletto boots. He was going to have to think about a lot of baseball tonight, or he was going to embarrass himself. “You look stunning, Amber.” He smiled. Her cheeks blushed. “Thanks. You clean up nicely yourself.” She stood back so he could enter her apartment. He glanced around, realizing he had never been inside. Her place was tidy and just seemed to have a sparkle to it. Taking in a deep breath, he smelled garlic and onion, and his mouth watered in anticipation. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d had a home cooked meal. “It smells incredible. What are you making?” he asked. He turned to look at her as she sauntered toward the kitchen. His gaze fell on her backside, enjoying the view. When he took a look at those boots again, he grunted as he imagined them wrapped around his neck. “Lasagna,” she called from the kitchen. “It’s my grandmother’s recipe. She always made the best lasagna.” **** Jax entered the kitchen, and Amber watched as he leaned against the counter. Her eyes drifted over his body, and she grew more nervous by the second. The way his black shirt clung tightly to his biceps sent shivers through her body. She almost didn’t know if she could go through with asking him what she had asked him here for. He looked mouth watering, and she knew he would be perfect for research. If anything, just the fantasies she’d had earlier today could fill her book up. That was good, because until yesterday, her well was running quite dry. That well was definitely flowing full now. So full she could feel it. Jax cleared his throat. “So what did you need to talk about?” “Let’s eat first and then we can discuss it, okay?” “Sounds great, because as good as this food smells—and I’m confident it’s going to taste ten times better—I won’t be able to speak for stuffing my mouth.” She laughed. She hoped it was as good as it smelled. “Do you mind taking Moxy out while I get the table set and get the food served up?” she asked as she studied two different bottles of wine before selecting one. “Is merlot fine for you?” “Yes,” he responded as he called Moxy over to him to get ready to take her out. ****

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“Wow, that was good.” Jax sat back in his chair and rubbed his belly. “After a meal like that, I think whatever you want to ask me, the answer will be yes!” Once again, Amber felt her face flush. “I’m glad you enjoyed it.” “Enjoyed it is an understatement.” “Well, I guess I need to get this cleaned up. If you want to relax in the living room, this will only take a second.” She pushed her chair out and started to grab the plates. “Sit down right now,” Jax demanded. “I got this.” Amber’s mouth dropped open as he took the plates from her hands. He placed his hand on her shoulder and gently pushed her back down in her chair. “Relax.” He finished gathering the dishes and headed into the kitchen. Luckily she had cleaned up almost everything while the lasagna cooked. She had, however, been looking forward to getting the motivation she needed while washing. Instead she sat there and listened to him hum away in the kitchen as he cleaned. She grabbed the bottle of wine and refilled both glasses. She thought about chugging the bottle down for liquid courage, but didn’t know how that would look. Taking the glasses, she headed into the living room and tried to get comfortable and appear sexy at the same time. Jax came out of the kitchen and took a seat on the couch across from her, still holding a towel as he dried his hands. She had to just get it out or she was going to chicken out. She could tell Jax was anxious to know what was going on. “Okay, so the reason I asked you over tonight...” She grabbed her glass and took a big sip of wine. Screw it, she needed liquid courage. She drained her glass and set it down. Taking a deep breath, she blurted out, “I’m writing a book.” “That’s awesome. Did you want me to edit it or something?” “Um, no,” she replied. “Okay, this is tough to ask. So I guess I should just say it.” Jax just looked at her, waiting. He looked sexy as hell sitting with his arms across the back of the couch. It was now or never. “The book I’m writing is an erotic romance.” She studied his face; a slight smirk formed on it. “As you might know, I don’t get a whole lot of male company around here, and well, past experiences have never really left me satisfied, so I don’t have a lot to go on.” “Are you asking me for porn or something?” She bit her bottom lip and let out a slight laugh. “No, I’m asking if you would be

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interested in being a test subject for me.” Jax lost his smirk and his eyes widened. “I have a lot of ideas, I just don’t know how they would exactly play out, if you get my drift. I want to try them with you.” “Are you asking me what I think you are?” “What do you think I’m asking?” “You want to have sex with me to help with your book?” “Yes.” Her eyes locked on his. Jax stared back, his eyes darkening with passion. Silence stood between them. “Where do I sign up?” he responded.

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Chapter 3 Relief washed over Amber. The hardest part was over and he hadn’t laughed in her face. “Are you sure?” she asked. “Uh, yeah!” Jax laughed, trying to shake the edge of nervousness off. “I too have not had as much female company as I would like.” “Well, good.” She rested her hands in her lap. “So, I guess we should get started.” “Now?” Jax stood up and crossed the small area between them. His face was only inches from hers. Taking in a deep breath, she could smell the sweet wine on his lips. Her eyes locked on his and then slowly drifted down to his lips. He slid his hand around her neck and lifted her face toward his. His eyes were intense and focused solely on her. Amber sighed as he leaned in. Closing her eyes, she felt his lips touch hers. It was a light kiss, and a soft moan escaped her mouth. The kiss deepened, and his hands slid under her hair and held her head in place. She moaned again and suddenly experienced the fireworks she had always heard about. Her body was ready to explode, and she could no longer control herself. She grabbed his shirt, pulling him as close to her as she could. His tongue pushed into her mouth, and she met him thrust for thrust. Pleasure began to ripple through her body and she needed him inside her, filling her. She leaned back, yanking Jax onto her as she spread her legs wide open, silently begging to feel him between her thighs. His body was heavier then she realized, and she loved the feel of him pushing against her. She ripped at his shirt with an urgent need to see what was underneath it. Jax stopped kissing her, and she watched as his eyes followed the curve of her neck all the way to her cleavage. He dipped his head down, licking between her breasts. Amber sighed, not wanting him to stop. The feel of his tongue lavishing her was more amazing than she had imagined. He lightly blew where his lips had been, and she had to control herself to keep from pleading for more. He tugged the top of her dress down, exposing her black lace bra. Within seconds, he had her bra removed and was fully playing with each breast.

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“God, you’re beautiful.” He bit down on her nipple, and she let out a slight yelp. Her pussy moistened. Her body was ready for him, and she had a feeling she was going to come much sooner than she intended. Never had a man given her such pleasure, and he hadn’t even touched her between her legs yet. Jax began inching her dress up. He swirled his tongue around her belly button. His hands slid down her sides and found their way to her inner thighs, rubbing slowly until he cupped her slick, wet center. Her legs tightened on him, holding him there as his fingers moved teasingly before he peeled her panties to the side and let his finger slide inside her. She let out a loud gasp. He moved in a rhythm that was about to drive her over the edge. Her pussy tightened around his digits, and she couldn’t wait until it was his cock that was filling her. He continued to finger her, and she felt as if she was on the verge of coming. She was breathing heavy. He positioned himself lower and his tongue dipped in where his hand had been. “Oh my G—”Amber screamed. Her legs tightened even more around Jax as she held him in place. Her hands instinctively moved down to grip his hair. She felt his tongue swirl around her clitoris and his fingers entering her at the same time. “I’m going to come. Oh my, Jax!” she screamed. Jax continued until her screams ceased and her body relaxed. He gave a few kisses to her inner thighs. He was harder than he would have liked, but he could see she was spent. He sat up and looked at her. Amber’s hair was a mess, and her clothes were all out of place. Her legs were wide open, and she still had those sexy boots on. She sat up, straightening her clothes. “Wow, I never knew that could be so good. Not to be crude, but I’ve never had such an intense orgasm.” Smiling, and who wouldn’t be, Jax helped her with her dress. “I hope that was some good material for your book.” “Is it your turn now?” Amber reached for Jax. “Next time.” He leaned down and drew her into another deep kiss. The thought of her kissing him after he’d just had his mouth all over her wet pussy left him aching to get his cock free. Her hands wandered down until they found the bulge in his pants.

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“Looks like you might not want to wait until next time,” she teased as her hands moved up and down his cock. Jax grunted. “Maybe you’re right.” Amber unbuttoned his jeans. She kissed his belly button and swirled her tongue around it. Her hands slid inside his pants, grabbing hold of his erection. “Oh my.” Jax moaned. Amber pushed his pants down until they sat around his ankles. She sat back and admired his long, thick cock that looked as if it was about to burst out of his boxer briefs. “Do you like what you see?” he asked. “Very much.” She slid his boxers down so they also circled his ankles. Jax inhaled deeply. She gazed up at him and their eyes met. While keeping eye contact, she slid her mouth around his erection. His eyes closed and he moaned loudly. Desire stirred through her knowing the pleasure she was giving him as her tongue moved up and down his shaft. She took him in as deep as she could. This was something she had never had much experience with. The feel of his thick cock filling her mouth turned her on even more. She was on the verge of coming again. Her mouth slid down and she rolled her tongue along his shaft. She let her finger drift down into her panties. She moaned from the pleasure and moved her mouth and fingers faster until she was coming. Jax’s hands gripped her head suddenly. His body began to move back and forth, his breath ragged. He tried to jerk away, but she grabbed his butt and held on to him. His seed filled her mouth and the salty taste slid right down her throat. Jax fell back onto the couch. Wiping her mouth, Amber took a seat next to him. He gazed at her with a smile spread across his face. “Wow, that was the best head I think I have ever had.” He laughed. “I’ll take that as a compliment. I never knew doing that could get me so hot.” “Do you need me to help you out?” He pulled her toward him. Leaning in closer, she rubbed her palms across his chest. “No, I took care of it.” For a moment Jax appeared confused, then his expression changed to one of realization. “You mean, you…” He paused. “Wow, that’s hot. Wish I could have seen that.” She laughed. “Maybe another time.”

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Amber woke the next morning feeling drunk with happiness. The night before had been amazing. She never knew how astonishing foreplay could be. She almost wanted to rush straight out of her apartment and bang on Jax’s door and beg him to make her feel that way again. She knew better though. This was a business arrangement, and it was best not to let feelings get involved. She had been able to critic some of her writing last night. Now that she had finally experienced a knock-your-socks-off orgasm, her mind was full of ideas. She didn’t know, however, if she was brave enough to try them. Was it going to be awkward around Jax now? She almost wished she was back at work today. She had a whole day ahead of her to let her mind run free. If she was at work, at least her mind would be partially occupied. Knowing it was time to crawl her satisfied self out of bed, she tossed the cover off her. Glancing at the end of the bed, she was shocked to see Moxy still sleeping. It had been a later night than usual, and she didn’t realize it had worn the dog out quite so much. She took advantage of the dog sleeping in and headed to the kitchen to get a cup of the fresh brewed coffee she smelled. Once again, she thanked the great invention of an automatic coffee maker. The last thing she wanted to do upon waking was have to scoop coffee and measure water. She enjoyed almost half a cup before Moxy came barreling out of her room. Amber grabbed the leash and headed out for a quick walk with the dog. She tried hard not to keep glancing toward the hallway in hopes she might see Jax. It was almost impossible. She wanted to see him and wanted to find out how many more fireworks they could produce in bed. Upon returning to her apartment, she was a bit disappointed that she hadn’t seen him, but there was always time. He could still be sleeping and maybe dreaming of her. **** Four garbage bags later, the place was almost clean. Jax had to do something to keep himself busy or he was going to tear a hole in the wall to get next door to Amber. This crush he had been having for her was intensified after last night. He needed more of her. He craved more of her. Having this wall between them was going to drive him insane. But at least his apartment was almost clean. He was disgusted, however, that he had filled up four garbage bags of trash! How was he living in such filth? Glancing at the clock, he decided to finish this task up with a quick run to the dumpster.

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When he returned, he headed for the shower. After that, he wasn’t sure what he was going to do. As the hot water hit his body his thoughts drifted back to Amber. He wanted to taste her again. She had been so sweet and slick. He could still taste her in his mouth. The desire to sample her again was strong, and this time he wanted her to watch, her heavy lashed, green eyes sparkling. Memories rushed back of her pleasing him. She’d held his gaze as she took him in her mouth. Groaning, he grabbed his cock, remembering now that she had pleasured herself at the same time. He needed to get this frustration out, and even though he would rather it be inside of her, his hand was going to have to do for now. This was going to be quick, and he knew it. Gliding his hand quickly and roughly up and down his shaft, he imagined her taking him as deep in her throat as she could, until he finally felt the relief he needed. Letting the water spray him in the face now he felt relaxed, and he hoped he would be able to get something done today. By the time lunch had come and gone, he was no longer able to stay away from Amber. He had no excuse to go over there, but he had to see her anyway. Grabbing his keys, he headed out his door and took the few steps to her apartment. He knocked and heard Moxy barking. He hoped Amber was home. He had to see her. The door opened and there stood Amber, once again in a white t-shirt and no bra and a pair of tiny pajama shorts. He groaned at that damn white t-shirt and her rosy nipples poking through. “Hi,” she said. Jax said nothing, he merely stared at her for a moment, then forcefully grabbed her and kissed her. Her mouth immediately opened to his and he tasted the sweet coffee on her breath. Wrapping his arms around her waist, he pulled her tightly to him. He slowly walked her inside, not stopping the kiss as he kicked the door shut behind him. To his surprise she pushed him back against the door, slamming her body into his. Her kiss was full of passion, and his erection grew. Breaking the kiss, he grabbed hold of her waist, pushing his erection against her belly. He looked into her eyes and then slowly let his gaze drop to her breasts. Her nipples were fully erect and showed right through her thin shirt. He dipped his head down and his mouth latched on to one. “Oh God, Jax. That feels absolutely amazing.” His hand slid under her shirt, and he lightly flicked the other nipple with his fingers.

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Removing his mouth from her shirt, he admired the now wet nipple peeking through. “Whenever you wear this t-shirt you drive me and every man around here mad. I’ve wanted to suck your nipples through that shirt for quite some time now.” “With a tongue like that, please do it anytime!” He grinned. “I will.” “I wondered if I was going to see you today.” She stepped away from his embrace and into the living room. “I tried to stay away as long as I could, but I couldn’t find anything else to do. I thought you might need some more help with your book.” “Oh, you’ve given me some great inspiration. My mind is full of nasty thoughts.” She laughed. “Oh, really? Might you want to try any of these?” he asked, hoping she would enlighten him. She bit her bottom lip in a nervous way. He watched her eyes. He could almost see the wheels turning in her head as she tried to gather the words to tell him exactly what she wanted. “Are you hungry?” she asked instead. “Yes.” He knew exactly what he wanted to eat. “What are you hungry for?” “You.” She said nothing, just stared back at him. “I want you to take off your shorts and panties and turn around and hold the ends of the couch.” He pointed in the direction of the couch she was standing by. Amber stood frozen a minute at his bluntness. He liked seeing her unsure. With her eyes locked on his, she gradually removed her shorts and panties, letting them fall to the floor. She walked over to the couch so her back was to him and took hold of the side. Slowly, he moved up behind her. “Spread your legs now,” he whispered into her ear. She did as he said. He looked at her spread open and saw her pussy was already wet with anticipation. “Bend forward slightly.” She did.

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“Thank you.” Jax placed his hands on her bare thighs, rubbing up and down. Her thighs were smooth and soft as he slowly inched up to her sensitive spot. She moaned as his finger finally meet her pussy. He spread her lips apart and rubbed the wetness all around. She closed her eyes and tilted her head up. She felt his hair meet her thighs and knew what was coming. His tongue then gave a gentle touch to her clit, and she moaned loudly. “Amber, look at me.” Her head fell down and her eyes opened to see him in this interesting position. She bent forward. With him behind her, all she could see was him peering up at her, his mouth on her wet pussy. It amazed her how much more it turned her on to see him there. She fought the urge to close her eyes as he began to suck on her clit. He slid a finger into her pussy while he sucked. She cried out from the sensation. She knew she was about to come. An urge came over her to ride his face as he fingered her. “Go with it,” he whispered. She began moving with the motion of his finger. It felt amazing as she rode his face. The feel of his whiskers hitting her clitoris sent her over the edge, and she screamed out in ecstasy. “Bend over some more,” he instructed. She gladly obliged. Hearing a wrapper open, she knew what was coming next. She spread her legs wider and felt him grab her waist and shoulder. He slammed into her wet pussy, and she loved how he wasn’t gentle about it. She met him thrust for thrust as he pounded into her. He grabbed her hair, pulling on it, holding her head back. Her back arched as another orgasm started to build, and all she could do was call his name from the pleasure going through her body. “Jax!” She moaned as he slammed his cock into her over and over again until finally his breath was ragged. They both gasped for air. Jax’s body was limp on top of her. She had never experienced anything like this. She was in a total state on bliss, and she didn’t want it to end.

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Chapter 4 Amber was the first to wake up from where she and Jax had finally nestled down for a nap on her couch. She was sore in several intimate areas and smiled as she remembered the passionate encounter they’d had. This was going to fit in perfectly with her book; he was giving her such great stuff to go on. In fact, after today, between her imagination and Jax, she was likely ready to finish her manuscript. She was sure to have a story so heated that at least one publisher would gladly accept her work. She stretched a little more, and then sat up. A glance down at Jax showed he was still sound asleep. He looked so peaceful that she didn’t want to wake him. Brushing her hands across his cheek softly, she admired how handsome he was, and she fantasized about waking him with her breast already waiting by his mouth. She resisted though, remembering that he was not someone to fall in love with. He barely worked and never had money for anything. Being with someone who couldn’t manage his time or life properly wasn’t an option for her. He was probably unorganized and most likely a slob. Why did he have to be such an amazing lover? But she was grateful for that and would let him in the library anytime after hours. She smiled, imagining him taking her right there in the aisles with all the books surrounding them. She grabbed a blanket to wrap around her as she hurried to her bedroom to get dressed. It really was a shame he didn’t seem to be going anywhere with his life. The men she had dated who had money were always lousy in bed. Whenever their tongue met her pussy, she counted the spots on the ceiling and faked moaning to get them to hurry up. She didn’t know if she could go back to that wondering if it was an orgasm after knowing that it was one with Jax. It was just her luck that she’d finally found a man who could make her scream her head off and send her over the edge and he was a slacker. Pulling on a fresh shirt and a pair of jeans, she felt her stomach rumble. She needed to eat something, and she might as well feed him while she was at it. After that performance she was sure he was just as famished as her. Grabbing her cellphone, she called for Chinese take-out. She glanced out her bedroom door and saw Jax was still napping. She hoped what she ordered was something he liked. The

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delivery guy said he would be there in twenty minutes. In the meantime she called Moxy and headed out for a little fresh air. **** Jax awoke, alone and not in his own apartment. Taking a glance around he realized where he was. He sat up and looked for Amber, but didn’t see her anywhere. Grabbing his clothes, he slipped them back on and called out to her, but didn’t get an answer. Figuring she was out with the dog, he decided to head toward the bathroom to clean up. When he came out, he saw her entering the apartment. Relief swept through him and he walked over to her, greeting her with a kiss. This was something he could get used to—Amber coming home to him every day, them making love every night and sleeping wrapped up in one another’s arms. She seemed to brush him off a little and appeared slightly annoyed. In fact, she seemed like the normal Amber he dealt with on a daily basis, who usually viewed him as a pest. He felt a little hurt and had hoped that they were past that. He decided to ignore it for now; he was probably just imagining it. “I ordered Chinese, hope that’s okay.” She handed Moxy a treat. “Sounds good to me. Thanks.” “No problem.” “I don’t know what I’ll do tomorrow when you return to work. I’ve enjoyed this time with you today.” She smiled. “Well, I have to work to pay the bills.” “That’s true. Guess I should have worked today,” he said awkwardly. “However, I think this time with you was a lot more fun.” She nodded. The air suddenly seemed to be getting pretty thick between them. Thankfully, there was a knock on her door and he knew the food had arrived. She paid the delivery boy and returned to the kitchen. Jax opened the cupboard and got out two plates in an attempt to help her. “This smells amazing. Wow, I am starved!” He laughed. “Me too.” They dug into the food and ate in silence. All Jax could think about was how this felt like heaven to him. Being with her this way, so normal, was all he wanted. He wanted to share all this with her every day, even Moxy. He wanted to let her sleep in as he took the dog out then wake

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her slowly with kisses while holding her cup of coffee out to her. He wanted all of her in every way, and he hoped that somehow she might feel the same for him. **** While eating, Amber’s mind wandered to thoughts about Jax and how she wished he was someone more responsible and was going to go somewhere in his life. In fact, she actually wasn’t even sure who he wrote for. She hadn’t seen anything published by him. Maybe he used a pen name, but she thought only book authors did that. He was almost always home or at the library right before she left work so she figured it was safe to assume he was a freelancer. She almost wanted to act all mother hen on him and ask what he planned on doing with his life, but she knew that wasn’t her place. She was simply his lover, even though there was an ache in her heart when she imagined not being with him. She had to remind herself that she needed someone dependable and that wasn’t Jax. Falling in love with him wasn’t an option. She watched as Jax boxed dinner up and packed it in her refrigerator. He rinsed the dishes off and put them in the dishwasher. She smiled as just these little acts melted her heart. Every woman dreamed of a man like this, but why couldn’t he be completely perfect? “Thanks. That was sweet of you to clean up.” “No problem, it’s the least I could do since you fed me.” “Yes, well, feeding you was the least I could do since you have so generously helped me with my writing.” “Anytime.” He brushed her curls behind her ears. He leaned down and took her lips as if they were there for the taking. It was a soft but passionate kiss all in one. Fire traveled through Amber’s body, and the urge to grab a hold of him and tear his clothes off was strong. It took all her self-control not to. Jax stopped the kiss. His hand lay on her neck, lightly rubbing the back right under her hairline. He whispered, “If I don’t stop now, I won’t stop.” As she stared into his eyes, she got the feeling that this was more a question from him than a statement. She nodded in agreement as much as she didn’t want to. Being with him again would send her off the cliff, and she knew she wouldn’t be able to turn back. Jax leaned over and left her with a light kiss on the cheek. “I’ll see you tomorrow.” He turned and walked through the door. Amber couldn’t help but feel like a piece of her

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heart left the apartment too. **** Saturday was one of the longest work days for Amber, even though it was only a half day. The library was active with teens writing papers, parents with their young children checking out books, and adults using the computers. Though she spent the day helping many of the patrons, the clock ticked slowly. She was itching to get home to work on edits, or at least that was what she kept telling herself as she tried her best to keep her mind off a certain someone. Jax had looked so hurt last night when she sent him away. She would have loved to spend the evening with him, ravishing him and exploring every inch of his sculpted body, but it would only open her heart even more. She just couldn’t let herself fall for him, even though she was already feeling that way. She never knew she would enjoy the companionship she’d had from him in just the two days that she’d been off work. Finally the library began to clear out. Amber glanced at the clock and saw it was almost time to leave. The line was small as she helped the patrons get the last of the books they wanted to check out. She did her best to keep a friendly smile on her face. Most days she loved this job, but today it just needed to be over. After the last person was helped and sent on her way, Amber locked the doors to the library. There was no Jax today storming through the doors and holding her up. She set out to do her closing duties so she could head home and try to enjoy what was left of the day. Thank goodness tomorrow was Sunday and the library was closed. When Amber arrived home, she couldn’t help but glance down the hallway toward Jax’s as she came up the stairs. She was almost tempted to walk past her apartment and head over to see him when she saw an envelope taped to her door. It was addressed to her and was from the front office. After unlocking the door she reached in and grabbed the leash since she knew Moxy was ready to get out. She bent down, receiving all the doggy kisses that her Boston terrier wanted to hand out before attaching the leash and leading her down the stairs. As she waited for the dog to do her business, Amber opened the envelope. She knew this was coming, but it still hurt knowing the landlord was requesting a meeting about Moxy’s obsessive barking. Stuffing the letter back in the envelope, she picked Moxy up and raced up the stairs. When she reached the top of the stairs she bumped right into Jax.

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“Watch it!” she snapped. “Whoa, excuse me. You’re the one who came bounding up these stairs as if there was a fire.” Amber rolled her eyes and headed toward her apartment. “Everything okay?” he asked. “Everything’s fine.” She opened her door and started to shut it when he put his hand in the way. “Something is wrong or you wouldn’t be acting like this.” “I’m in no mood to socialize. I had a long day at work and now the landlord is requesting a meeting about Moxy and her barking. I’m so frustrated.” Amber threw the letter onto the coffee table and plopped down on the couch. Moxy jumped up in her lap, giving her an apologetic look. Damn bostons and their highly expressive faces. Amber petted her and hugged her tightly. “It’s not your fault. You’re mommy’s little princess.” “Sorry to hear that.” Jax said. “My offer still stands to help out with her. I can take her for short walks and give her some attention while you’re away. It hopefully will calm some of her barking down.” “Is she really that bad?” Studying his face, she could tell he wasn’t sure how to answer. He was probably just biting his tongue so he wouldn’t hurt her feelings. “She doesn’t bother me,” he said. Amber didn’t say anything, only leaned her head back and closed her eyes. She hoped Jax would get the message that she wanted him to leave so she could pout on her own. As if he could read her thoughts, she heard the door open and his heavy footsteps as he left. A part of her was relieved, but the other part wished he’d stayed. **** Amber tried to enjoy her evening. On top of feeling horrible about her dog missing her during the day and obviously being a pest to her neighbors, she knew she had hurt Jax’s feelings. She decided that when it came to a man the best way to apologize was with food. Cooking also helped with her frustration, so she made grilled chicken, placed it on top of rice, and added some

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steamed veggies to the side. She snuck out of the apartment, hoping to not wake Moxy as she left. After knocking she realized she had never been inside Jax’s apartment. This was going to be her first time seeing deep into Jax’s life and what he really did with his time. She stood patiently, holding the two plates in her hands. She used her foot to lightly knock on the door again, wondering what was taking so long. Finally the door opened and Jax appeared. His hair was tousled as though he had been asleep. He was shirtless and wore navy pajama pants. Amber suddenly felt hungry for a lot more than what she was holding in her hands. She licked her lips, imagining what was waiting for her under those pants. Jax leaned against the doorway. “Did I wake you?” she asked. He nodded. “Sorry. I wanted to stop by and apologize for earlier, and I figured I’d bring you dinner. I can come back.” She started to turn to leave. “No, please don’t. I want you to stay.” His hand came out and grabbed a hold of her shoulder. She turned back toward him and handed him his plate. Stepping into his apartment, she took a moment to glance around and saw that the layout was just like hers, except backward. She followed him into the kitchen and they laid the plates on the counter. His place was tidy, which surprised her. Most guys didn’t keep their place this neat. Her eyes continued to dart around, trying to avoid looking at him, but her gaze always fell back to his. He stood there bare chested and she yearned to rub her hands over it and feel the definition of his muscles. When he was dressed he looked so lean that seeing muscles on his tiny frame amazed her. Her eyes continued to feast on his body until her gaze met his again. His eyes were dark with passion, and she longed to get closer to him and inhale his musky scent. The next thing she knew, her lips were firmly pressed against his and a feeling of wholeness swept through her. She began backing him toward the bedroom, trying to not break the kiss. Jax lifted her up as he fell backward onto the bed, his hands firmly holding her ass. Digging her fingers into his shoulders, she let her lips devour his neck. She felt a craving deep within that she had to have him in her mouth. She needed to taste him and have him fill her mouth.

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While still kissing his neck, she moved her hands down and untied his pajamas. She bit his earlobe and whispered, “I need to taste you.” Slowly she kissed her way down, pulling his pants and boxers along with her. She stared at his cock, fully erect and waiting for her. She groaned in delight. Glancing at him, she smiled and let her palms lightly circle the inside of his thighs. She pulled him up so he sat upright, his legs over the edge of the bed. His erection was eye level and she couldn’t help but stare for a moment. She quickly yanked her shirt off and tossed it aside. Next, she undid her bra and let it fall to the floor. She wanted to rub his cock along her breasts. Leaning forward, she let his cock lightly brush her nipples. Taking his shaft in her hand, she moved it around and flicked her nipple. She moaned at how good it felt. Her mouth began to water, and the urge to taste him took over. Some precum started to form and sat on her breast. If she thought she was wet between her legs already, she was really wet now and couldn’t believe how much this had turned her on. She dipped her head down and took him into her mouth. Her tongue swirled around his tip. She drew his cock in deeper than she had been able to do before. He filled her entire throat. “That is amazing,” Jax said as he placed his hands on her head to help guide her in rhythm. Amber loved the feel of his big hands on her head, somewhat holding her in place, knowing she wasn’t in complete control. Her head bobbed up and down faster, still drawing him in as deep as she comfortably could. Judging by the sound of Jax’s breaths getting shorter, it wouldn’t be much longer before he came. “Enough.” He moaned and started to pull on her shoulders to lift her. Leisurely, she licked her way to the end of his cock and let it lightly smack her in the lips as she crawled on top of him. Slowly, she slipped off her shorts and panties and kicked them to the floor. Leaning toward the table next to the bed, Jax grabbed a condom. “Let me,” she said, taking the condom from him. This was something she had never done and had always wanted to try. She opened the package with her teeth and rolled the condom over his swollen shaft. Glancing at the condom on him, he almost looked too big, as if he might break it. She lifted her body up and slowly lowered herself onto him. A moan escaped her as he filled her completely. It felt amazing. She began to ride him as fast as she could. A pleasure she

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couldn’t describe began to build inside her. His hands gripped her ass, urging her to go even faster. She screamed out in bliss. Her orgasm ripped through her, and she clung to his shoulders as he continued to pump into her during her climax. He drove into her several more times before he groaned and clutched her waist. Relaxing completely into him, she was spent, and felt at peace at that moment. Nothing else mattered while his arms were wrapped tightly around her. She was astonished by how Jax touching her made her feel better. It wasn’t good to be having these feelings for him, but it was starting to be impossible not to. “Wow, I am starved now,” she said to push her thoughts from her head. “Me too, and I didn’t even do all that amazing work.” She laughed. “I’m glad you enjoyed it.” She rolled off of him and plopped herself up on the pillow next to him. “Be right back, let me grab that awesome dinner you brought over.” He slid out of bed and wrapped a towel around his waist. Amber fluffed the pillows up as she waited for him and got as comfortable as she could. He was back fairly quickly, holding two plates and silverware. He handed her both plates, and he dropped the towel and slid back into the bed. “This smells really good.” “It’s nothing special.” “It’s always special when someone cooks for you.” He leaned over and kissed her cheek. Her heart fluttered at this small intimate encounter. She knew she should be telling her heart “no, don’t go there,” but it was so hard to change the heart. As Jax bit in, he moaned. “This is good. I could really get used to your cooking.” “It’s kind of fun cooking for someone. I’ve always enjoyed cooking, but it’s usually just me so it’s easier to eat a sandwich.” “How you’re not married, I don’t know.” He winked at her. She laughed nervously, trying to read him. She was having a hard time reading his signs—was he into her as much as she was starting to be into him, or was this just sex for him? She needed to push these thoughts away and remember that he was not the right person for her. He wasn’t going anywhere as a freelance writer. Hell, he couldn’t even afford internet and he was suppose to keep up with what was going on around the world?

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They ate silently, devouring their food as if it were their last meal. She glanced around his room, enjoying just the atmosphere of eating in bed. His room was cluttered, yet still tidy and it didn’t make her want to run screaming. As she finished up her food, she heard a sound. She gasped, realizing it was Moxy barking next door. “I’d better get back, she does not sound happy.” Amber slid out of bed, collecting her clothes. She dressed in record speed. “Thanks for the hot sex, as usual.” Grabbing her plate, she raced out of the bedroom and to the living room. She stopped dead in her tracks. The first thing she saw was an open laptop sitting on his coffee table and while that didn’t bother her, the wireless router sitting in the corner with its lights lit up did. She heard Jax behind her. “Let me help with Moxy.” She spun around. “What’s going on here?” Jax glanced where her eyes had been. “Shit. I can explain.” “You had internet all this time and you lied to me? You came to my work at closing every day begging to use the computer when you didn’t really need to.” She crossed her arms, holding her plate to her side. “There were times I didn’t have the money to pay the internet bill, so it was off and I had a genuine reason to be there.” She gasped. “So not only are you broke half the time, you’re a liar too! I stayed late at work countless nights for you to check your email when I could have been home enjoying myself. I should have known better than to get involved with you.” Amber began to storm toward the door. “I needed an excuse to get to know you. I really liked you and you weren’t letting me in.” As she opened the door, she turned and shot a nasty glance at him. “Maybe I wouldn’t let you in because it would be lowering my standards. Did you ever think that maybe I wanted someone who could afford his own fast food meals and not always need to ‘borrow’ a dollar?” Anger flooded his face. “I’m obviously not too low for you to sleep with. Good luck with that book, Amber, and good luck finding anyone else who can rock your world like I can.” Spinning on her heels, she headed back to her apartment, furious and hurt. She should have trusted her instincts all along and never have gotten involved with him.

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Chapter 5 Amber spent all day Sunday getting her anger out by editing her book and getting everything set to send it off to a few different publishers. There was a lot of great material in front of her and this might be something she was actually good at, but she couldn’t help but feel a little nervous. If only her real life was as perfect as her characters. She was more hurt than angry at Jax, because she felt used and preyed upon by him. She knew she’d said some hurtful things, and had originally set out to use him with his knowledge. If it hadn’t been for him, she wouldn’t have completed this book. If it was accepted for publication, she would make a point to thank him, otherwise she was going to avoid him, even though her heart felt a void. Earlier in the day she had met with the landlord and unless she wanted to be evicted she was going to have to put Moxy in doggy daycare. She had a few places in mind and planned to visit them on her next day off. She opened the word document one more time and studied the manuscript. She was ready to send it, even though she felt like her nerves were going to burst out of her body. She picked the first three publishers she wanted to try and emailed them a cover letter about her story with the manuscript attached; she just had to go for it! Silently she said a prayer and hoped the time frame of hearing from them wouldn’t be too long. Her day was done, and as she sat alone in her living room with Moxy asleep next to her, she had never felt so alone. **** Jax had spent all day Sunday emotionally exhausted. He hadn’t thought Amber would be so upset upon finding out he had internet. When she discovered his secret, he’d considered lying and saying that he’d just gotten it, but that felt wrong. Plus, he knew lying always came back on you, and when that happened he would look worse in her eyes. What hurt the most was how low she thought of him. He never realized how much she just tolerated him. He thought maybe she had felt the same about him but had just been too afraid to act. He always felt like she liked his late night visits, never coming across excessively irritated. Their usual banter those evenings was easy going, and he thought she somewhat

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enjoyed it. His heart ached knowing how wrong he’d been, and if it wasn’t for her writing some book, they never would have ended up in bed together. Her words still stung, and seeing her so upset made him feel worse. He knew he should be angry at her, but he wasn’t. He wanted to talk things over with her, like you did when you love someone. There, he thought, I’ll admit it, I love her. It hurt knowing she didn’t feel the same way. He decided to busy himself with work. News never stopped and if he headed down to the local newspaper he was sure to find something to do. Maybe it was time to take the job they had been offering him with a guaranteed paycheck. He loved the freedom he had, but he saw now that the image he portrayed was not a good one. **** Amber locked up the library and headed for her car. She climbed in and let out a loud sigh. It was Friday and she hadn’t heard from or seen Jax all week. She should still be angry at him, but she felt herself missing him, more then she’d imagined. The comfort of having him around in the evening to talk to had become so familiar to her. The few days they had shared meals, talk, and each other’s companies had been so blissful. And she didn’t even want to forget the sex, she missed that the most. The intimacy with him and the chemistry that flew off them when together. She had never had a lover anywhere near as good as him. The thought of him left her wet and wanting to carry a pocket vibrator. Several times she had debated going to him and apologizing for her harsh words. After a lot of thinking she realized that he was just trying to get to know her. She knew she had over reacted about him having internet. Heck, for all she knew he had just recently gotten it. However, he didn’t appear to be home. In the last week, she hadn’t seen him at all, and she figured he was busying himself with work maybe. She hoped at least. She swung by the daycare to pick up Moxy. Thankfully doggie daycare was a whole lot cheaper than kid’s daycare. Moxy seemed to enjoy having other dogs to socialize with, and Amber was sure her neighbors were happy too. Upon getting home and feeding Moxy, Amber opened her laptop to check her email and social networks. She went into the kitchen and popped a microwave meal in and grabbed a bottle of water. Sitting on the couch, she logged into her email. She saw she’d received an email from one of the publishers. The beating of her heart picked up and her palms began to sweat. She

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hadn’t expected to hear back so quickly. She placed the cursor on the email message, almost too afraid to open it. What if the publisher rejected her story and said her writing sucked? Closing her eyes and taking in a deep breath, she clicked the mouse. She held her eyes tightly closed a moment longer and then let out a sigh. Anxiety rushed through her as she opened her eyes and began to read. Her heart was beating even faster now and echoed through her head. A few sentences in she found herself screaming in excitement. She was being published. She’d done it. Grabbing Moxy, she gave the dog a huge kiss. She had to share her news and celebrate. There wasn’t a doubt in her mind who she wanted to share the news with. Holding Moxy in her arms, she rushed out of her apartment. She banged on Jax’s door and waited impatiently. When he opened the door, he was dressed in a suit and tie. He looked hot. She didn’t think twice as she threw herself into his arms with Moxy too. “I’m getting published! Holy shit, Jax, I’m getting published!” she screamed, full of excitement she just couldn’t contain. Jax wrapped his arms around her and held tight. “I can’t even express the way I’m feeling right now. Please, let’s celebrate.” “Congrats, Amber. This is great news.” “Let’s go out, dinner’s on me.” She stepped back, looking up at him. She studied his expression, seeing a change from how he usually looked at her. She felt a pit in her stomach, worried she was about to feel rejection in another way. “I can’t tonight, I have to work.” She let out a nervous giggle. “What do you mean? Take the night off. Your schedule is so slack. Come on, it will be fun.” “Not anymore, I decided to take a job so I could make something of myself. But being the new guy, I have the graveyard shift.” “What do you mean, you took on a job?” “Well, after what you said to me, I didn’t want to look like a deadbeat anymore and frankly times are tough and I guess money speaks.” “About that, Jax, I am so sorry. I never should have gotten so upset. It was silly. I said some hurtful things I shouldn’t have said. I get now that you liked me and wanted to get to know me better, and I think that’s sweet.” She leaned up and kissed his neck. “Do you forgive me?”

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She licked a trail down his neck, wishing like hell they were inside his apartment so she could drop the damn dog and show him just how sorry she was. “Stop, Amber. I have to go.” Amber stepped back, hurt by his rejection. She felt her face turn red with embarrassment. “I’m happy you’re getting published, and that’s the only reason you’re over here apologizing. If you had truly been sorry I would have seen you before now. If you had come home tonight and didn’t find this out would you be here now?” Amber was silent. “I didn’t think so. Excuse me, I need to get to work.” Pulling the door shut, he brushed past her without a backward glance. **** Giving Amber the cold shoulder had been one of the hardest things Jax had ever done. More than anything he wanted to see where her apology was going to lead. He could only imagine what that fantastic mouth was going to do to him. He knew though, he had to stand his ground to show her that he was more than her play toy. He wanted her to love him the way he loved her, and playing a little hard to get might be just what she needed.

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Chapter 6 Amber listened to the sound of the clock ticking, and unfortunately it was only ten o’clock. This day was dragging and she had an agenda. After being turned down by Jax, Amber spent the night frustrated, hurt, and planning. Jax had shown her he was a person with feelings, something she had forgotten. He was right, she had expected to go over there and he would just be putty in her hands. He wasn’t though. He had put her in her place actually. She was thankful she was off this Saturday so she could spend the day making it up to Jax. She dropped Moxy off at daycare and paid to board her overnight just in case things went as she was hoping. Her dog looked as if she couldn’t care less. The owner of the daycare said Moxy was quite smitten with her male dog, which happened to be a big lab. The two were inseparable and appeared to be madly in love. In fact, Moxy didn’t even kiss Amber goodbye, just took off toward the big lab named Bruno. Since Jax had worked all night Amber wanted to give him time to get some sleep before she put her plan into motion. She was too antsy though and decided that maybe if she showered and found stuff to distract her, time would go by faster. **** By one o’clock Amber had rearranged all her cabinets, cleaned out her closet, showered, had her picnic basket packed, and was about ready to pull her thumb nails off. It was time she decided. She was ready to kick her plan into gear and get this man back and make up for where she had been wrong. Heading into her bedroom she put on the purple lace baby doll she had chosen along with a pair of black stilettos and her long pea coat. Standing in front of the mirror, she checked her makeup and poofed her hair. Her curls fell nicely in place, and she admired how she looked. Turning, she strutted toward the kitchen and grabbed the picnic basket. Saying a silent prayer that this would work, she headed to Jax’s. She knocked on the door and felt as if her stomach was doing flips. For a moment she wanted to turn and run back to the safety of her home, but she knew she could do this. She tapped her toes as she tried to patiently wait. Finally she heard the door knob turn, and Jax appeared in a pair of loose fitting jeans, and that was it. Every time she saw that chest, she

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always had to lick her lips and take a moment to appreciate such a fine body. “Hi. I’m sorry to bother you,” she said sweetly, “but my internet is down. Could I borrow yours a moment?” Jax laughed. “Sure, come on in. Guess I can’t turn down a request like that.” She walked in a seductive strut past him and into his living room. “Are you cold or something?” he asked as he shut the door, eyeing the jacket. Standing with her back to him, she turned her head and looked at him over her shoulder. “Actually, I am very hot.” Bending forward, she put the basket on the coffee table and then dropped her coat to the floor. Slowly, she turned toward him and took a step away from the dropped coat. She put one hand on her neck and the other on her belly and rubbed. “It’s so hot in here.” She let one hand dip down to the top on her thong, teasing him a little by sliding her finger slightly in the top. Her eyes watched him as he focused on her hand that dipped down toward her pussy. “Do you want to see me touch myself, Jax?” “Yes,” he said, in a deep voice. Pulling her thong down, she let it fall to the floor. She kicked the thong from her ankles and placed one foot on the coffee table, letting her legs spread open. Bending forward slightly, she rubbed her hands from her ankles up until her fingers met her slick center. “I’m moist already.” He watched as her fingers started to twirl around her clit. “I am imagining this is you.” She placed one finger inside herself and moaned. He continued to watch as her finger went in and out and her thumb circled her clit. She noticed the bulge in his pants getting bigger. Her eyes stayed on him as her mouth opened and she moaned some more. He moved toward her, grabbing her and crushing his mouth to hers. The kiss was rough and wanting, full of lust. He pushed her so she fell onto the couch. His kiss stayed rough, and his hand dived between her thighs. His fingers pressed into her, also rough. She gasped at the force he used as he fingered her. She broke the kiss to cry out, “Oh my, Jax!” His lips found her neck, and he bit into the tender flesh just under her ear. “Jax!” she screamed again.

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He sat up, staring down at her as he slipped his pants off, grabbing a condom from the back pocket. Frantically, he tore the wrapper open and slid the condom over his swollen shaft. “I have to be in you. Now.” He spread her legs open wide, lifted her knees level with his shoulders, and plunged into her. He wasn’t taking it easy, he was fucking her hard. Grabbing his shoulders in a tight grip, she cried out as he drove into her. Her back arched as she began to climax, and he drew her nipple into his mouth, lightly biting, and she screamed louder. He pumped faster and faster then screamed out her name and fell on top of her. “Oh my, Jax. That was amazing.” “I didn’t hurt you?” he whispered. He looked up at her, concern filling his eyes. “You did, but in a good way. I loved every moment.” He sat up, pulling her next to him on the couch. She straightened her lingerie. They stared at one another for a moment as if neither of them really knew what to say. Finally Amber leaned over and grabbed her basket. She opened it and pulled out a bottle of chardonnay and whip cream. “I had planned on getting in here with my excuse and seducing you with wine, strawberries, and whip cream. I think I got a little ahead of my plan.” She giggled, sitting the bottle of wine down on the table. “I would say so. However, I can think of other uses for that whip cream.” “Me too.” Before he had time to say anything else she popped the top off and squirted some in her mouth. He laughed and then watched as she leaned forward and took him into her mouth. “Oh my God, Amber!” She moved her mouth up and down, enjoying the whip cream goodness and the feel of his cock getting hard in her mouth again. She felt his hands in her hair as he moaned. “You taste divine,” she said and began licking him. Jax pulled her up. “Come here.” His mouth met hers and kissed as he grabbed the bottle of whip cream away from her. “Lay back,” he instructed. She did so and then let out a loud giggle as she felt the spray of whip cream on her pussy. It was cool and arousing at the same time. As his warm mouth met her, she thought she would

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instantly orgasm. She never imagined this could feel so amazing and she shuddered under him. “You taste decadent,” he said. “I need you in me, again.” She moaned. He pulled her up until she straddled his lap. “This time, let’s remove this.” He pulled the baby doll over her head. He then squirted whip cream on each breast and licked it up. He once again nibbled on each of her nipples, and she gasped from how the pain could make her even wetter. She slid down his shaft as he continued to lap up the whip cream on her breasts. “Take it slow,” he whispered. “Very slow, and just enjoy the feel of us together.” She did as he said, gritting her teeth from the sensations that erupted through her. A connection was felt deep within. As much as she enjoyed really feeling him, she needed more. Gripping his shoulders, she pushed onto him deeper, urging him to go faster. “Do you like that?” he asked. “Yes, but I need more.” “Wait.” His hands went to her hips to guide her rhythm and make sure she stayed slow. “I want to enjoy this. Let’s make love this time.” He kissed her mouth lightly. Closing her eyes, she felt the passion in his kiss and finally let herself succumb to the feelings she had. A tear trickled down her cheek, and her desire built up to a new level. “Now,” he whispered. She began to move faster and more tears trickled as he kept kissing her slowly and tenderly. Through their orgasms, he continued to kiss her, even after it was over. Finally he broke the kiss and gazed into her eyes, seeing the tears that she had shed. With his thumb he wiped them away. She wanted to cry at how happy she felt. What they had just shared was something she had never experienced. She had made love to Jax, and she knew now that there would be no one else. “Jax,” she whispered close to his ear. “Yeah.” “I think… I think… I know I love you.” He pulled her face away from his ear and looked deep into her eyes as if he was searching her soul. “I know I love you.”

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The tears began to flow again, and he was right there to wipe them away. “I am so sorry, Jax. I never meant to hurt you. I was trying to hide from my feelings.” “You’re forgiven. You were forgiven even when you said it.” “I was? You were so cold the other day.” “I know you needed to know I was more than just a play toy.” “You’re more.” “I know. I know why you fought your feelings too. You were right, I could have been doing so much more with my life than I was. I just wasn’t ready to really settle into being a responsible adult. You make me want to though. I don’t want to come off as a loser to you.” “You aren’t a loser. I admire you doing what you love.” She kissed his cheek. He leaned in again and kissed her. He placed his hands on her cheeks. “Will you say it again?” he asked. She looked at him confused a moment and then realized what he wanted. “I love you, Jax.”

About Lacey Wolfe Lacey Wolfe has always had a passion for words, whether it’s getting lost in a book or writing her own. From the time she was a child she would slip away to write short stories about people she knew and fantasies she wished would happen. It has always been her dream to be a published author and with her two children now of school age, she finally has the time to work on making her dream come true. Lacey lives in Georgia with her husband, son and daughter, their six cats and one black lab who rules the house. Lacey’s Website: www.laceywolfe.com Reader eMail: [email protected]